It’s funny how people keep calling you dark like that’s an insult.
As if darkness isn’t where the truth lives.
As if the shadows aren’t the place we go when we’re done performing.
I’ve loved you in every form you’ve offered. The glossy kind. The bloody kind. The slow-burn kind that crawls under your skin and refuses to leave. You’ve been a ritual and a refuge. A mirror. A dare. A door I keep opening, even when I already know what’s on the other side.
Because you’ve never asked me to look away.
You let fear become language.
You let desire become power.
You let women be complicated without punishing us for it.
In you, we get to be everything we’re told to sand down in real life.
Angry. Hungry. Brilliant. Unforgivable.
Not just the victim. Not just the prize. Not just the lesson.
The monster.
The hero.
The woman who survives and doesn’t apologize for how.
You’ve always understood something the world pretends not to:
that love isn’t always soft.
that devotion isn’t always pretty.
that sometimes the most honest kind of affection leaves bite marks.
And maybe that’s why I keep coming back.
Because when I’m tired of being palatable, you hand me my full self.
When I’m tired of being told to “calm down,” you say, good—fucking feel it.
When I’m tired of stories that only make room for women if they’re easy to digest, you let us be the main event. Messy. Mythic. Alive.
So this is my love letter—to you in all your glorious darkness. The one that keeps women’s complexity intact. The one that turns dread into art. The one that makes room for tenderness right next to terror, like they’ve always belonged together.
I don’t come to you to escape.
I come to you to remember.
You’re not a guilty pleasure.
You’re a chosen one.
xoxo,
Jenn